Actually - I had no plans to bring my "OnMyMind Diary" back online again. In a way, it isn't - because all the years between 2002 and Spring 2018 - are gone.


I want to write sometimes

But I do realize that sometimes it is nice to share insights - for example the whereabouts in Photography. Especially now that the analog art of Photography turns more and more into a weak shadow of it's former Self. In the days of selfies, snapshooting and ego smiles all over the place. Knowledge gets watered out, transformed and even twisted. Prices rise, the sortiment get's thinner and thinner.


Analogue Photography is a dying art

I would say for sure. It also get's watered out. The fine art is something only very few really do today. And those that came very late to the show, are more experimental - which in a way is really fun - but at the same time, the real knowledge about analog photography, the fine art - get's watered out. Diluted. And partially forgotten. Not everything is about stretching rules into chaotic experiments. There is time for everything - but for the sake of just dipping your toes a little bit here and there.



It was a trend in the end of the 00s

Buying a camera system, and three weeks later another, in order to write about it, and so forth. Retro Photography. Nah. but it didn't really hold in the long run. And those photography blogs have already disappeared. (Facebook probably swallowed most of the activity people did on their own blogs earlier in the years of 2006-2013).


Up like the sun, down like a pancake

It was a thing of the 00s, when those who got interested into film based photography, bought a new system every month, wrote about it - but it all got forgotten. Didn't it ? Up like a sun, and down like a pancake.

It was more a fashion. You bought things because you could. And it all felt "new" in terms of odd and different tools (cameras, lenses, etc) It was fun, because it was relatively cheap and definitely much much cheaper than in the super high prices such system had in the 80s and 90s.



Today that segment has been taken over

by the digital mediumformat cameras like Hasselblad and Leica Sinar, Alpha and Phase One, which astronomical prices. So, the analog equivalent plunged to prices that are at times simply astonishing. When an APO lens goes down from $ 4000 to only $300 - that is a big difference.

But today eBay isn't what it was, either.

The stuff that is offered today, not the same. Nor is the interest, because most bloggers who suddenly were into analog photography - seemed to have quit again. (likely caught up into the latest digital models from Sony, Nikon, Canon etc). You know the drill. Running, rushing and back for more.



Behaviors have changed, too

The attention span of today's general people is minimal. We "all" are in it. An image is often not worth much either. I can send images to friends I know, without even getting a comment. That's really poor, i think. But that is sometimes a reality to face, whether I like it or not.

Everything revolves around Facebook and Instagram activities (and similar). Not to mention the tremendous information we feed those giants with, who were basically created for surveillance of the human population. Google, Youtube, Apple, Facebook, Microsoft, Instagram, etc.

No exception.


Military Complex and it's agendas

As the Military Complex got enough of fingerprints from the world citizens (Apple Touch ID), but now needs better info for facial recognition; for the hidden agendas how to totally tag people around the world... with China being the best example so far officially (social points and punishment though facial recognition from all the cameras they set up in the cities for their people). If you are not nice, you can't use train or flights in China, based on that facial recognition software combined with a social scale of how many or few points you get. It is as corrupted demiurgic as it possibly can be.  

Just give Apple a call, and they fix a practical solution for widespread facial scanning and collection of information - everyone will accept sooner or later. And very smartly implemented.

The rest is history.

But we have only seen the very beginning of it.




Back... to Analog Photography & Darkroom Work

But now I drifted away from Photography. I was saying that Analog Photography and darkroom work is a dying art. It may not happen in 5 or 10 years - but the way economical, demiurgic thinking in 'drone' people is done, it all leads to less products for analog photography, as well steep price increases... Look at Fuji, which basically disabled all their Black & White films. The best films (Acros 100) - all gone. Not to mention the price increases they did very 6-9 month, also killed it. Kodak isn't much better in that regard. Ilford on the other hand, seem to be the most stable company devoted to analog film photography without pulling any film.


I might choose ILFORD films in the future

I will in fact go over to Ilford, as i am a bit weary after the failed "heat damaged" Kodak T-MAX films, and the price increases. I will work with Ilford Delta 100 instead, replacing the dearly missed Fuji Acros 100. I used Delta 100 earlier as a studio film, after Agfa APX 25 disappeared.

I may also use HP5+ 400 or Delta 400 as my higher sensitivity film, but I have not yet made up my mind about it.



Short Toe films = good shadows but gray highlights

The character of a Ilford HP5+, Delta 400 and Tri-X 400 are the same: they are typical short toe films, which means high contrast in the shadows and lower contrast in the highlights.

Here, T-MAX 400 is the opposite, and in fact unique, because it retains higher contrast in the highlights compared to low contrast in the shadows - and that is rather unusual on the market of what is left today.


I had many funky results with T-MAX 400

Kodak Tri-X 400 also might be a safer alternative to T-MAX 400 - the latter of which I had too many funky results with. As if it is extra sensitive to warmth and heat. You think you can store film in room temperatures - but I am not so sure about the Kodak films anymore in that regard. I got awful results ! I also know that Ilford Delta 100 get's the same strange result with an irregular coarse soft pattern all over the negatives - but only after you stored the film in warm room temperatures for 5-10 years. Not after a year.

T-MAX 400 is truly a fantastic film when it works well. Contains the finest grain, and high sharpness. But it just didn't work for me well in real life (on mediumformat film) Luckily the latest film I developed, when i took images of Sal in Stockholm, in August 2018 on T-MAX 400 - turned out excellent ! That's how i wanted them - but rarely got them.

But, there is still hope ;-) And I still have a hundred rolls... both fresh as well the heat damaged ones.




Sometimes I just wanna write about analog photography. Spilling words, you know - and so i open up my "OnMyMind" Diary again - but start from scratch, 4th of October 2018. Nothing old comes back.

And for every Diary page, I always have the opportunity to show a new photos, especially those made with real chemical film :-) I get a lot of pleasure out to see analog photos turning digital - as they have been hidden for decades.

Now I can reproduce them with the best possible digital quality compared to all the earlier attempts and ways in the past 20 years. I am not saying a flatbed scanner is bad. You can really get the most out of LARGE negatives. But 35mm (24x36mm) negatives are absolutely better reproduced with a digital camera with proper setup and a real macro lens.

Raffe ;-)