I believe that the people such as friends and buddies I have made various portraits of, I always treated with respect - and that is also visible in the photography that is left behind. No exception - all of them have been treated with respect by heart and mind.

Actually, I never had the ambition to chock or to step totally outside of whatever frames... I just wanted to make guys look nice. Oh well, that sounded very vanilla. Of course I wanted to explore for example nudity - but I never had any urge of doing it provocative in order to archive certain reactions or whatever. I didn't care about it - but was keen on expanding my own limitations. Yet, I always preferred the sensual way of things, whether nude or not.

And that is a signature in my images, no matter who I made photos of - no matter if it was done in the 90s, 00, or 10s.

 

About Beauty and Looks

I also always felt, that no matter how they looked like - the beauty is in the eye of the beholder. And frankly, I never felt that any guy or gal ever was "ugly". It does not exist in photography ! and if you think that way - then you haven't worked deep and hard enough to close into the person you are portraying. Not everyone is directly accessible. It can take time, and sometimes a lot of effort. But in my eye and vision, nobody was ugly - and I stand to it 100%

On the contrary i met many surprised - where some of the buddies I took into my studio making portraits of, kind of flowered in front of the camera, becoming interesting.

 

Just be - and go from there

Nevertheless - I often had no specific goals. I took in the people "as they were", and from there we worked forward, and looked, sensed, felt - what is interesting or not. I did of course sometimes have ideas, i wished to visualize into analog photography. It is nice to have a concept or idea, and then working from there. It didn't matter if it wasn't "exactly" like i had envisioned. I always kept a door open to the dynamics between model and photographer - and take it from there.

Originally, I was a Bambi on Ice. And frankly, many times I still was bambi on ice - but it didn't really matter to me. Sometimes I didn't even know what I was doing, leaving with a feeling of "oh, i didn't do a good job" - only to discover, that yes, I did a good job. The rest if of course a matter of taste and interpretation. I myself, am proud that I didn't misuse people in the studio. I love that people have been natural guys and gals, and that we had fun (and I hope they had too). That they remained themselves even if I sometimes asked them to take certain poses - it never violated their integrity. Actually, most of the time, it was such a great play in between, where we would test things. It never felt like going overboard or something.

And like I said, I was not seeking attention or breaking norms or whatever. I still like that. I am just not the kind of guy, who seeks to breaks new grounds, trying to provocate or whatever. I do not even believe in it, and I guess, I never did.

 

I once bought theater blood.

And then I just didn't know what to do with it photographically - because I didn't understand the goal of doing such photography. For the sake of what ? Art ? Trash ? It never took off in any way - simply because I have no message to the world or anyone, doing "art" with (fake) blood.

 

What seemed like "Bambi-on-Ice"...

In hindsight, what seemed like Bambi-on-Ice photography, turned out in my eyes, to be genuine photography with a touch of classic photography. Yeah, and why not. Too many make trash, or producing so sophisticated photography, that I sometimes wonder... where is it going ? And what messages are put out ? Just for the sake of doing "sophisticated" portraits of people ? What if photography is so far off removed from the people themselves, that the are barely human anymore ?

So, i prefer human. I love men. I love faces. I love classic photography - and are a sucker for the old style classics from the 40s and 50s and 60s.


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