So, since Mid January, all of the sudden - i just didn't feel to write into my Diary anymore. Almost all activity within photography stopped - with no ideas, no energy to do / continue my light painting projects.

Instead I collected almost obsessively many more figures i wrote earlier about; from X-Men, to Star Wars and even an Alien (from the movie Aliens). But this ends now, as my home looks like it has been invaded by all those characters, standing everywhere... I probably went a bit too far.

I am neither a classic collector nor a super fan of Star Wars and X-Men. I like them, yes, but I am not a collector in truth. It was solely for the purpose of making some special photos with them combined with light painting.

Despite me taking every second day 20.000 IU Vitamin D3+K2, it didn't prevent me from having these sluggish days. It did actually surprise me, because this doesn't really happen often. At least not this pronounced.

Or perhaps it just feels like it (psychologically), in hindsight ?

I did function for the most - nor did I get sick or anything. The true days of me barely getting my eyes open where just a very few days, really. For the rest of the last dull 1.5 months, it just has been sort of slow and uninspired. Like when you start something enthusiastically (like i felt in December), and suddenly stops enticing you (10 Jan and onwards).

That I didn't expect to happen.

Oh what the fuck. Get over it.

It is now past anyway. And while we are now in the coldest period of the year - days get ever so slightly lighter and longer. Eventually winter has to loosen its grip, in favor of milder air penetrating our lands. Not without some fights all the way into may. I am absolutely sure that in March we will see winter break-ins, likewise also penetrating into April. And then in May when you get chilly air, subduing the spring time feeling.

Well, that happens almost every year.

But then the sun is considerably stronger, the days significantly longer - and we see flowers starting to blossom. Even the smaller ones at first, bring joy and enthusiasm (unless you are a scoller mobile zombie type. Majority of people barely seem to see anything other than having brains locked into an artificial world which is masked as "news" and "entertainment".

The brainwash is almost complete.

We swallow the blue pills, not just one by one, but in masses.

Welcome to the planet of lies and illuisions (The blue pills)

It makes me sad, seeing so many people being locked into automatic behavior almost like a robot (while the ego often masks this, by thinking you are on top of things) - extending the "endless sleep" of the "blue pills" (See movie "The Matrix").

In the mean time, creepily from behind, brain wiring change even physically to such a degree that the western huma behaviour is entralled in robotic behaviour (and everything that xomes with it). The lack of empathy, curiosity and reaction... It is stunning. Pouring down into all ages.

To be honest, i find this frightening.