The feeling... is just so amazing. Right in the beginning of spring time - while the air is chilly, and even freezing. But inside our kitchen, the sun has moved enough to the east, that it shines into our kitchen.

In one week

it will be the first day, when she will shine all the way into the hall and bathroom - making funny / interesting patterns on the door. Giving a promise of springtime, and summer later on. The time of the year, where the body awakens, hormones pour and life simply feels a little bit lighter. When lips more easily transform into a smile. Even among people passing by.

It is a time of ease and loveliness; a greater chance of pulling though to the surface.

Just wonderful !

Stockholm-Tullinge

reports very low temperature this morning with -6.1°C. Even while I am writing, Tullinge still has -2.8°C and the sun is up already. Stockholm City reports +1.7°C. Nevertheless, it will warm up quickly now.

From work.

I just came home from work, early morning. The sun is shining - albeit it was freezing cold in the air. But when you get home, and you've got a day off from work, while nice music is flowing... well, those are the cheap - but oh so wonderful amusements of a simple, primitive worker life *LOL*

Perry once wrote that.

Me on that primitive Green Metro line. Zion guys have a very strong tendency of looking down on other people. The chosen onces -or something weird like that.

Well, at least i am not a nasty show-off like him, who publicly supported poisoning humanity with artificial genetic injections. So, there is that. That Tiny, Little Difference.

I don't work or support for evil !

I am totally totally fine with working on a primitive subway line. Which by the way isn't so primitive really. There is a huge apparatus behind the many wheels in order to function over decades. It surely serves many millions of people - without hurting their bodies.

So. There is that.

Earthly ego vs... soul spirit

I guess my earthly ego will always shoot irritated arrows against Perry from time to time - no matter what year or time we write *LOL* (it's a bit sad, to say that... but i think it is true in my case. I would be lying of i had totally neutral thoughts or feelings about Perry. There is unfortunately always a part which loathes him. And a part, which does the opposite, too. As irritating that is... it is also true.

I believe that non-communication is one of the most effective ways, to give unwillingly bad energy to seeds to grow like weed. Growing in the darkness, in the lack of sunshine. Well - and communication has never been a strength of Perry. On the contrary. One of those major weaknesses behind which he often hid himself. And nowadays the majority of humans do. Well, 2025 is slightly different compared to 2004. People have become cowards more than ever. The Corona Plandemic has shown that more than ever, compared to the past 50 years. I have no clear answer to that phenomena. Something has been dulling down humanity.

See no evil, hear no evil.

I also know already, that my spirit doesn't have such inclinations of anger or "hate". I had dream which indicated a completely, totally different attitude towards him. Which in one way surprised me, but at the same time, i knew deep down, that it wasn't strange at all. From one to another spirit, i would think that is how they communicate - way beyond all earthly shortcomings, because a spirit knows it's origin, all its lives lived - and doesn't get stuck in the avatar dealings we call our lives.

Actually in a few dreams

i was somewhat surprised how pure the love was, i felt. Inside the dream, that wasn't strange at all. It was more like the most normal thing ! Sometimes dreams mirror my innermost attitudes. Or reminding me of aspects, i had forgotten or denied access to feel ! Of course I was a bit surprised when i woke up, that i did not have the slightest disturbance in my feelings towards Perry. How can that be, I asked myself. And somehow there was also a part in me, that wasn't surprised at all. It felt very honest.

Somehow, the dream showed me that there also was a different world in thinking and feeling. (It isn't always like that. Because sometimes anger and irritation can be reflected as well in my dreams towards a person or situation). But it didn't towards Perry the last time i dreamed about him.

Therefore i had to ask myself this: Which part in me is angry/irritated one ?

My answers is; It is my ego.

Ego: is the artificial and imprinted construct which we often identify ourselves with, mixing it up with "our persona". Dependent on how much or little one identifies oneself with the ego, it colors my thinking and feelings. If you observe your ego from "afar" in an impersonal but aware setting - then the question begs: Who are YOU, who is observing your ego ?!

Good question !

I am not saying that in a sort of wishful-thinking-compensating manner. A dream for me can sometimes be a look into a different world behind the veil. (Not being a truth, but giving hints to things beyond what the eye's retina can see). What is veiled to most of us in daily life, can sometimes be glimpsed...

I guess, that when we die in this life, we arrive back to the source of our spirit - and all its knowledge from different densities and lifetimes it has lived. And know EXACTLY what it is all about. What matters - and the many things that do not. And while we ponder over our decisions and actions from the last, recently lived physical avatar life, we held so dear.

Funny. Our earthy lives.

The traps in that state, we tend to get imprinted from... seemingly never fully detaching from. Like stripes that never can get fully washed out/away during that single life while still living.

I wonder though. Imagine that certain people we meet in life, belong to a kind of "soul-family". But in the physical life, they play different rolls in our lives. Sometimes lovers. Sometimes father/son or mother/daughter or sisters/brothers, or other kind of connections. Sometimes, the entities from our soul group will be the enemy or play the "bad guy", distressing our lives - but places us into making choices.

Why ?

The Souls journey of lessons

Because that is part of the soul's learning lessons. If our avatars would be fully known as avatars, we wouldn't take our lives seriously. Lessons wouldn't be learned in truth. Crystallization of soul, wouldn't be able to densify through the many life time cycles. No spiritual evolution could take place. Creation itself - would turn into entropy.

That's probably why it all, always feels so damn serious, literal and damn physical in our earthly lives. While we are most often totally submerged with the persona and bodies we live in. Living / experiencing life as if it is "the only life we have".

With it of course, also the relations we have with other people. In good and in bad. Including the choices and consequences we go though - in both good and bad. The traumas we sometimes live through. The pain we inflicted on others, and/or others did on us. There are vital, most important keystones in our lives and lessons.

There are absolutely no coincidences involved !

We meet the people we need to meet. They are not just anyone, or all of them. We really meet the people we need to meet (by free will). And so will be our choices - based on free will. And each one is a key, deeply buried, and often with different awareness and insights at different levels. It is really very puzzling... When you think you found a key - you can sometimes realize a decade later, that there is even more under it.

It reminds me a little bit of a fractal-way of (potentially available) insights can be had, when one is keen to search / investigative, ponder and sense in a vital, aware way.